Today I put Jeb down.
I made the decision yesterday morning.
He’s not mine but I love him.
I’m pet/house sitting for friends for a month.
I figured I can finish this book and be a Spiritual Counsellor from anywhere, so when they asked me earlier this year if I’d do it I couldn’t think of a reason to say no.
I’m really glad I said yes.
There’s been tears, but I’m so glad I got to spend these last few days with such a beautiful, honest and open soul.
He’d gone downhill a little before they left and we had discussed what I would do if he took a turn for the worst, but none of us thought it would come so soon.
His turn for the worst was the day after they left, poor old boy.
Like he’d hung on until they were safely off before he let himself go.
I got here on Thursday, and put him down on Monday.
Saying goodbye to a loved one is never easy.
It’s a hard call to make, euthanising someone’s beloved pet.
I knew it was time though, even before his joy began to fade.
I spoke to his humans and told them I thought it was time.
They organised the vets and this morning Waiheke Vets came and put him to sleep in the lounge, then took him away to be cremated.
It was really peaceful and quick.
To help myself and the furry family here deal with this transition I made up a First Light Flower Essences of New Zealand remedy this morning before the vet arrived.
Flower essences work equally well on people and animals.
Animals feel grief and get depressed and lonely too.
This blend has:
10 Starry Hibiscus, 11 Chatham Island Geranium and 12 Native Harebell for dealing with changes in the home and family structure, being left alone, old age and end of life.
37 King Fern for security.
75 Whau for endings, letting go of the old, facing what can’t be avoided and support during sudden loss.
76 Native Hawthorne for soothing emotional pain and coping with new situations.
78 Akeake for change, reorientation after shock and the ability to cope.
117 Clutha River Daisy for life and death and assisting those moving on so they don’t get stuck.
I gave it to all of us, Jeb included, and will keep giving it to Oria as she gets used to her new life without her best mate.
Winnie is already dealing with the loss of her feline bff last year, so this blend will help with that too.
He’d come right for a bit and I would think “Maybe it’s not time.” “Maybe I made the wrong decision.”
Because making these decisions is hard.
But it was time.
I made the call on his quality of life and decided it was better to end it now before it got worse.
I’ve known him for a few years and had the pleasure of spending an entire summer with him once too.
For the last few days we have had snuggles and noogies and pats (and more than a few tears from me) and I know he knew how loved he was.
He was one of those dogs with a permanent smile that just wants to love you and be with you.
He’d get excited at the smallest bit of attention his way and was so gentle and loving.
He was so happy to go for a walk still, even if a 10 metre circle around the lawn was all he could manage.
After he was taken away I went out side and this rainbow bridge was shining brightly.
I like to think it took him home.
The information about the flower essences above comes from The Sacred Plant Medicine of Aotearoa by Franchelle Ofsoske-Wyber and the New Zealand Native Flower Essence Reference Guide from First Light Flower Essences of New Zealand.