Consciously creating the future.
If am doing this, (self-publishing a book, being a spiritual counsellor), and I have all the help I need at this moment, which I do, and have a beautiful healing space at Kumeu Osteopathy that I absolutely love, and I have seen it all come to fruition in my mind anyway, what could possibly be holding me back now?
Sure avoidance of rejection. Retribution. Ridicule. Judgement. Criticism. Vulnerability. I’ve always known that laying myself bare like this and exposing my raw self in a book, and as a healer and metaphysician, out in the world would open me up to a world of opinions. But I’m not scared of those. Anymore.
No. What it comes down to is procrastination about fulfilling my destiny, about knowing that it’s on and there is no turning back. I can’t hide from my purpose anymore.
A bizarre fear of success, not failure is what has kept me umm-ing and ahh-ing and dragging my feet. It has taken ten years to get to this point, and I feel like I’m at the very beginning!
What slowed me down (aside from personal healing time, operations, court cases, ptsd and a bit of agoraphobia here and there) was knowing that I am responsible for everything I put into the world and I am also responsible for creating my reality.
Dreaming my reality into existence responsibly.
Knowing the power of my thoughts. Knowing how mindful I need to be. How responsible I am for everything I create on this realm and energetically in all the others.
WATCH OUT WHAT YOU WISH FOR.
I’ve often gotten what I wanted only to realise I didn’t really want that anyway. (That’s another story for another time.)
Every thought we have creates our reality. I have to make sure my thoughts align with my intent and creation. With my authentic self.
Part of being authentic for me has been telling magical things about myself via my website http://www.simonnebutler.co.nz/ and in interviews with reporters. Knowing it all to be true.
Fearlessly saying I have psychic abilities. Standing up and being the real me. Owning the magic inside me. The magic that flows though me as real as the life blood that sustains me and the oxygen I breathe. Not hiding it from the world in shame or fear.
I know who I am and my purpose in life. I will never dim my light for others comfort again. I refuse to be anything the other than my truest self. What other people have to say about that is none of my business. The only thing I can do is be me. To the best of my ability. Fearlessly.
We aren’t really taught to shine. We are taught, or we learn, to hide certain parts of ourselves that seem different or powerful. Taught not to skite about ourselves.
I AM good at what I do. I know how to heal myself and others. Inside out. Body, mind, soul, spirit, lineage, past lives. Right down to my bones I know how. Through my bones. Through every life I’ve had. This isn’t my first rodeo. I know the dimensions I have to travel to, to get what I need to be effective. I can say that fearlessly because it’s true.
My warrior spirit won’t be denied. I am a Rainbow Warrior of Peace. I am a Warrior Queen. I am a Temple Priestess. I am a Medicine Woman. I am an Apprentice Shaman. I am a Spiritual Counsellor. I am a Healer. No one can take those away from me and it doesn’t matter if anyone else believes it. I know it. I feel it. I live it.